Surround yourself with beauty

Before the year is out, I want to lament the loss of my mother once again. Maybe I can find a way to process my grief in 2012 and stop spinning around like a leaf in a pool. Today, after working 5 hours of overtime on a Saturday – New Year’s Eve no less – […]

How Do I Let Go?

Arno and I are getting to know each other still. And we will continue to, of course, for years to come. He has seen that deeply personal messages sent originally to him will sometimes end up in a public forum. He said he’s realizing that <in his words> I am a writer, and a writer […]

I’m Not Graceful

My mother’s health failed rapidly, once we finally heard the diagnosis of cancer. And I have had multiple stages of not dealing with any of it gracefully. This is probably because it has come on so fast. Just when I make peace with a stage, we move on to another shocking phase. In a meeting […]

Question Mark

My mother is dying of cancer. From the looks of things, combined with my extreme lack of experience with cancer, or of death, I think she has anywhere from a few days to a few weeks left. Or maybe a month, but I hope not, because this is no life. I wish I had written […]

poignant

Pandora you wicked one.

Halloween recap

Holy cow. Seriously? 9:25 and I hear a little girl’s voice outside…there goes the bell.

Grey

I finished painting my daughter’s room. Dark grey. I protested, not a little. She stood firm (ooh, I raised an independent girl. A fact which bites me in the butt sometimes). It wasn’t until I got all the way around with the first coat, and could see it more or less in a complete state, […]

Cell phones vs. The Force; or, Joys of Parenting

Miss T causes some kind of magnetic rift in the Force that governs cell phones.

On the Other Hand

So thank you, all of you men, thank you.

Surfing the north shore, then Kumoricon

Friday we had big plans to finally find a board and do some surfing! We had sadly forgone the opportunity for some excellent waves at Waikiki on Monday. That was directly after our arrival and we were tired and still getting our bearing. The waves were coming in from a gorgeous south swell at Waikiki […]